Tyler Stillwell Gray

Happy happy 28th birthday Tyler!!!! I have a marathon of thoughts, feelings and emotions
running through my mind and body right now. If you were still here would we be eating cake and ice cream with you, or wondering why you didn't show up for your own family party? If you were here would we laugh and joke with each other or yell and fight with each other? Would we call and text each other or try and avoid each other? Would you be married with a child that could play with Aspen? I wonder how your hair would look now. Would you want to go camping with us, your family, or your friends? Would you still have the same friends? Are they even friends at all? I cant help but picture your handsome face and bright smile. You could have become whatever you wanted to become. You had so much love and support. What would life be like if you were here? I dream it would be full of love and laughter yet I am afraid it wouldn't be that great. I so badly wish you were around so I could slap you and then give you a great big hug. If you were here would I have to hide my stuff from you or would I trust you? Who knows? Would you still make fun of my country music? Would I bail you out of jail? Would I let you drive my car? What kind of man would you be today? There are way too many what ifs... All I know is that you are in a better place. I love you and think of you every minute. I wish I was a better sister to you. I wish I could rid this world of all addiction. I truly see how addition tears people down, ruins relationships, and even takes peoples life's. I love you Tyler and will never forget you. Save me a spot in heaven.....